I do want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this chance to see shining samples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in an extended while, I do not feel alone.
Section of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I could be this for the incorrect reason; a course in miracles as a means to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I’d had any insights. What I’m about to share wasn’t yet clear at that time; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have let you see inside. Don’t are interested troubling the mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I possibly could not consider anything that I’d said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I’d in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere using its residents’satisfaction, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I possibly could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
You will find other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t consider them right now.